HIGHSCH FRIENDSHIP #4

That night, around 11.45pm I was about to sleep.Out of blue,someone give me a letter from her.I was happy and thought that she want to apologize and befriend with me.That time, I just think to forgive and forget our stupid ass argument.But,as I read it more like a farewell or "surat putus kawan".Some of her words that I'll never forget was "lepasni aku takmau dh rapat macam dlu, friendship hurts,".I was like.....okay :') I'm fine.My heart is sobbing so hard and I still can't believe that our 3 years friendship end just like this.Because of my advices,she really throw me away,far far away.We are now completely a stranger right now,today.

After that night,I ain't no more talking to her,get involve with her and anything relate to her.Lastly,I texted her on WhatsApp few weeks ago and she replied the same thing I do.Okay, I tried to act like  I am fine asf even I am not.Along that week(before we had our year end break),I was being labeled as"controller" and I am so sad.I felt like everyone's hating me on what I had do.This is so wrong, I can't let my ex-bestfriend involve with that shit.I CAN'T.

At first,memang aku tak boleh terima kenyataan yang kami dah putus kawan.Tapi,bila aku fikir balik...Allah ada sesuatu nak tunjuk dekat aku.Cuba korang bayangkan betapa seksanya bila aku dicop,dikutuk,difitnah macam-macam sebab aku tegur kawan aku sendiri.Benda tu pelik lah bagi aku.Aku cuba yang terbaik dalam teguran tu supaya dia tak terasa hati or what.Tapi,nak buat macam mana dah dia terasa and start talking shit behind me to those people.I CAN'T DO ANYTHING WHEN PEOPLE BLAMING ME ON THIS.
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Aku siap kena jumpak PRS (pembimbing rakan sebaya) untuk selesaikan masalah ni.Satu batch heboh pasal benda ni.Aku tak bukak mulut langsung pasal teguran aku tu.Sebab aku tau tu aib dia.Tapi dia senang wenang je bukak aib aku dekat budak² batch.IT'S HURT...PRS cakap "kau kena pujuk dia,sebab dia depress.Kau kena minta maaf..Kau kena faham dia.."
😅Sumpah over gila Bedah ni.Aku yang kena kecam pun tak depress sampai macam tu.See,people kept blaming me atas teguran tu.OMG, aku sangat² barai dengan budak batch aku.Maybe sebab benda yang diorang buat tu membawa ke arah LESB.Aku tak cakap diorang LESB tapi diorang yang buat sendiri.

For an example,today .. Jemah asyik buat status panggil Bedah baby.They think I didn't know but I know bitch.Panggil baby.Kalau gaduh sikit buat status "alaaa...baby kurr jangan marah..sorilaaa baby.." GOSH..geleman aku.Seriously,awal² memang sebagai lawak,one day dah terjebak susah nak lawan nafsu korang nanti.Aku dah malas nak cakap apa memandangkan dia dah buang aku jauh² dari hidup dia.Dia dah ada Jemah.

And lastly, aku cakap jugak "yalah² semua salah aku." I'm being hypocrite again.Damn.

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